Unscared

Okay, so I'm not unscared, I'm petrified. A worrier. In so many situations. And today I realised this. For so long of my adolescent life I have worried about events that really haven't had that much direct effect on how my life plans out and today I worried about such a minute happening in someone else's life. Today I realised that I worry too much.

Before an exam I can't sleep or eat. Before a competition I feel sick, nerves get on top of me, butterflies take over. Before the Crossfit Open WOD's I over thought strategies, lost sleep. Before a date I want to flee from my anxiety, certainly not fight it. Before a job interview, I play with my sweaty palms and rub my knees as I wait to be called in. I worry. But what word was continually used in those past five sentences?..BEFORE.

The build up, the "pre" stage, the run-in, the time before any event or moment of my life with even a moderate level of importance is when I worry. 

But as soon as I'm called into the interview room, my name announced out on the tannoy, the examiner starts the exam, or when I see that beautiful girl's face.

The timer counts down, 3, 2, 1, and the stopwatch starts, GO! 

I'm ready. Anxiety gone. Adrenaline HIGH. Unscared.

It's took me 19 years to understand this but everything in life really does happen for a reason so make the most of it, soak up every moment, absorb every failure or success and enjoy the memories. 

Be Unscared.